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Michigan J. Frog and Me

Still learning how to be me. In the comfort of my home, it’s pretty easy. But when I head toward the stage it becomes a daunting task, even after all these years. To be my truest self in front of a bunch of strangers is the most unsettling thing. I keep thinking it should get easier.

I stand up there with words and music that come from my soul, and put it before people I do not know, for their approval. What a bizarre activity when you really think about it. My deepest motivation has been to give something, to share something real, in the hopes that the audience and I might be transformed together. Lofty eh?

A fellow musician friend of mine shared with me why he stuck to doing cover songs. He said, ‘If I do covers and they don’t like it, who cares? But if I do my originals and they don’t like it, then they are rejecting me.’ Well put. That is how it feels.

For me it’s always been a crap shoot. Some nights I get lucky, I win because I didn’t get the better of myself, and other nights well, it’s a whole other story. I mess up my playing, I forget the words, I completely f*ck it all up. Why? Because I’m my own worst enemy. I am a believer in the power of our own thoughts and words to create our reality, apparently I still need to hone this skill!! Tuesday night, I created a heckler at Club Helsinki. No other performer heard from this guy but me. I opened my mouth to speak a bit before I played and from the shadows I hear, “just sing”. Yea. OK.

And I let it ruin my whole experience. I let it take what little confidence I had going in. I let it follow me home and take me down a dark road. Until I finally stopped it cold by realizing that this is what I let happen over and over and over again. Now that I’ve taken responsibility, I look forward to creating a new scenario for myself going forward.

Towne Crier Invitational Finals followup: Well, it was close but no cigar. It was a good crowd, receptive and attentive and I felt that I gave a good performance but I certainly did not go in like a competitor. That might have helped since it was a competition. I’ve never taken the attitude, “I’m the best”, because somewhere along the way I must have decided that would be ‘bad’, it wasn’t ‘nice’. I’m realizing now, that there’s absolutely nothing wrong with, “I’m the best me!”. Another lesson learned. It’s been a good week for that.

I’ve never fit in, and generally I’m ok with that, but when I make it matter, when I try to fit into someone else’s idea of who I should be, I crumble. I’m kind of like that Warner Brothers frog….

*originally written June 7, 2012.

Summer’s End

Hudson Vally Harvest Festival 9/21/2013 photo courtesy of: http://www.frontrowdave.com/

It has been a busy summer, full of ups and downs, and that is just life isn’t it? And so we keep movin’ on.

I’m heading back into my turtle shell for a bit while I work on an entirely new project. If it comes to fruition as I envision it in my mind’s eye, it will really be something to see!!

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Here’s a link to a video of Over Coffee from the Hudson Valley Harvest Festival shot by Front Row Dave.

~cheers for now~
~much love~LuAnn

 

 

Busy Week

Last week was loads of fun. I played the Singer/Songwriter Tuesdays at Rosendale Café. It was fabulous because I had my own cheering section! Priceless.
Played: Closer, Over Coffee, Real

Saturday I hit the highway and landed at Desolation Road Studios in Altamont NY. It was a small but attentive crowd and we had a blast. Sharing stories, chocolate and beverage. Jim Miller has created a really sweet space, not only for music but also for art, lessons and more. He took a chance on me, playing predominately original material, is not always the easiest bill to sell.

Between the two shows I received an email from Infinity Hall inviting me to participate in the Big Stage Competition Wednesday August 28. I’m one of 12 vying for an opening slot for a headliner, CA$H and a headline spot in the 2014 Open Mic Winners show. I humbly accepted the opportunity!!

Whew!! Glad I’ve been working away, spending lots of time with my lovely Yahmie!!